“If one does not understand a person, one tends to regard him as a fool.”

I pick up subtle hints...
I'm not a fool you see...

I can only be oblivious when
I'm not aware...
If you choose to percieve it
as I don't care...

That's not my problem is it?

I don't have ESP...
I can't sit here and
sense you're not okay
I can't sit here
and know it all...no way!

Lack of communication
is the reason why...
When I reached out asking why...
I got no reply...

Did you intend for me
to hear it from others?
To be the last one to know?
Fine so be it...
But don't come back and
throw subtle hints...

I don't know what hurts more...
The fact that you never told me why?
Or
The fact that you expected me to know why?
Times like these I don't even know
why I try..
waste my emotions...
why do I cry?

Tears come easy...
but not my ability
to deal with
emotions so
crazy...

I'm not a fool?
I think I am...

You make me believe ... I am...

State of Mind

I wrote this one a long time back in November and put it up in my main space on 5th November…just before I left for my trip to Goa… it was penned in one of my "swinging state of mind" :) ...when I was a little upset about a lot of things... *sigh*

When I think of you
I get lost
Past present future
Everything loses meaning
You do know, don't you?
For this state of mind,
There’s no cure

Smiles...laughter...tears
Of joy and of sadness
So many emotions
Flood my mind
Yet I go through each day
I tell you
I’m going thru the motions
daily grind

You want me to be otherwise
change things around me
I wish I cld...
Or do I?
 
Sometimes I’m confused
Sometimes I think you're right
Sometimes...I think
Who am I? What am I?

I'm searching for answers
I can't find them
These questions haunt me
When you lose patience
You tell me
Live with them!

Don’t you see?
I am living with them!!!

When I think of you
I get lost
Past present future
Everything loses meaning
For this state of mind,
Why is there no cure?