Angel

 Last night I dreamt of you

I cuddled you soft and warm

An angel in my arms

Sleeping peacefully calm

I kissed your tiny feet

As your tiny hands

Reached out to me

I held you close

Doted on you totally

I saw myself love you

Unconditionally

In a perfect world

Where love triumphs

Unimaginable as it may seem

This beautiful spring

You would have been

My reality…Not given up

Like a lost dream

Love that was

On Valentines...

Your smile is what I remember

the first time we met

Your smile is what I now try

so hard to forget

Do you remember our first

conversation?

Bits and pieces float around

in my head..my heart

And now that we're
not together

it's the memories of us

that keep me from

falling apart...

I want to live for
the memories of

the hours we shared

when you seem to

show you cared...

I struggle to live through

the hours without...

facing my demons 

and hearing them shout...

Love was never enough

Love just never was...

I will never learn, will I?

That this is final...

not a momentary pause...

But tell me...
Do you ever feel

the way I do?

Do you let reality

fade away...

and feel tempted to

say it too

say...I love you?

the way I still do...

Done with loving...

Penned sometime ago ... shared today

"I'm done with loving 

done with giving 

without receiving 

When it's gone 

nothing else matters 

Love is a game

it breaks...it shatters 

 a game of lies 

of selfish desire 

a path of roses 

to a raging fire 

I could learn 

to play too 

take you for a ride 

I could lose it too 

this thing called pride 

My lesson I've learnt 

my broken heart nursed 

Yet I won't wish 

upon you a life cursed 

There in the depths 

of all my misery 

you've occupied 

a part of me 

Let me be... set me free... 

No more pain 

for your selfish gain 

It isn't you, is it? 

It's I holding on 

It's I not letting go 

Its my weakness 

and i'm letting it show 

I'm done with loving 

done with giving 

without receiving"