Friday, February 28, 2014

Angel

 Last night I dreamt of you
I cuddled you soft and warm
An angel in my arms
Sleeping peacefully calm

I kissed your tiny feet
As your tiny hands
Reached out to me
I held you close
Doted on you totally
I saw myself love you
Unconditionally

In a perfect world
Where love triumphs
Unimaginable as it may seem
This beautiful spring
You would have been
My reality…Not given up
Like a lost dream

Friday, February 14, 2014

Love that was

On Valentines...

Your smile is what I remember
the first time we met
Your smile is what I now try
so hard to forget

Do you remember our first
conversation?
Bits and pieces float around
in my head..my heart

And now that we're
not together
it's the memories of us
that keep me from
falling apart...

I want to live for
the memories of
the hours we shared
when you seem to
show you cared...

I struggle to live through
the hours without...
facing my demons 
and hearing them shout...

Love was never enough
Love just never was...
I will never learn, will I?
That this is final...
not a momentary pause...

But tell me...
Do you ever feel
the way I do?

Do you let reality
fade away...
and feel tempted to
say it too

say...I love you?

the way I still do...

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Done with loving...

Penned sometime ago ... shared today

"I'm done with loving 
done with giving 
without receiving 

When it's gone 
nothing else matters 
Love is a game
it breaks...it shatters 

 a game of lies 
of selfish desire 
a path of roses 
to a raging fire 

I could learn 
to play too 
take you for a ride 
I could lose it too 
this thing called pride 

My lesson I've learnt 
my broken heart nursed 
Yet I won't wish 
upon you a life cursed 

There in the depths 
of all my misery 
you've occupied 
a part of me 

Let me be... set me free... 

No more pain 
for your selfish gain 

It isn't you, is it? 

It's I holding on 
It's I not letting go 
Its my weakness 
and i'm letting it show 

I'm done with loving 
done with giving 
without receiving"

Friday, May 31, 2013

DREAM...

"Hmmm…this particular poem may seem a little vague and I cannot elaborate the circumstances and situation that prompted the lines below…it’s not as easy as it seems…to forget…even if there is no one to remember…the dream is never easy to let go…"

A dream that lasted a day or two
A dream woven around you
But you were never meant to be
A dream I wish I never did see

Yes…God works in mysterious ways
And…I know in just a few more days
You'll be a distant memory
Even though you were a part of me

Alone I can't hold back my tears
Alone I confront my worst fears
I never did know you...see you...hold you
You didn't...and you don't exist
Yet I loved you...and I still do

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Prelude to pain

Dedicated to the “casual fling” ... whatever!
I have this craving
That’s driving me insane
It’s a prelude to pain

I wanna stay
Don’t push me away
Wanna give this one night
Whatever I’ve got

You hear me?

I wanna experience
Ecstasy
Make it real
This never ending
Fantasy

You want no strings attached
I can live with that
It’s no curse
I’ve lived with regret worse

It’s a prelude to pain
My loss your gain

I wanna stay
Don’t push me away
Wanna give this one night
Whatever I’ve got

You hear me?

I’ll live with
The regret
Coz baby right now,
I wanna give you
A night
You’ll never forget!

It’s a prelude to pain
My loss your gain

Tomorrow
You’ll probably
Look right through me
You think that scares me?
Maybe…

But I wanna look at tonight
And forget tomorrow
Forget yesterday
Tonight it’s going to be magic
Just my way

Yes! I’m gonna
Satisfy this craving
That’s driving me insane
It’s a prelude to pain
My loss your gain!

Thursday, November 25, 2010

The End

All good things come to an end
Nothing lasts forever
The smile of a friend
Changes to the cold stare
Of a stranger

Sharing caring loving
Gone in the blink of an eye
“Us” losing out to “I”
Nothing left to say
Only a desire to
Walk away
Memories remain
They bring a tear...a smile
And all the pain
Fades after a while

It simply doesn’t matter
Life moves on
Till there’s thing left
The good...the bad...
Like “us” they’re all gone...

Friday, July 23, 2010

Then and Now

It's been a while since I last wrote here. Life's kept me busy in a nice way. The poem below was a spontaneous one and has not gone through any editing as such. Inspired by the lives of many around me.

 That was then
This is now
We’ve changed
You and I
And
We can’t fathom
How

Then there were
Secret smiles
Clandestine conversations
Passionate encounters
Every second together
Mattered
Every minute apart
Shattered

Now all that’s left is
Lingering feelings
Unfulfilled desires
Longings
Quiet sighs
Silent tears
Known and
Unknown
Fears

Even as I
Voice myself
Through my words
I can sense
Your discomfort
Try as I might
It will end
There’s a sense
Of finality
Tonight

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Reason to smile...

A new dream
Unreal as it may seem
A new beginning
A new longing…

My heart sings
A new song
A lil heartbeat in me
A lil life in me

I count the days
Plan in many ways
Praying…silently
Waiting … patiently!

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Let's get away...

I know solitude is rare
To think,
Of a time gone by

Sitting here humming
That old song…
I sigh …

It’s tempting to get away
Escape to that quiet
Solitude…
Just you and I

Time spent
In your arms
Your gentle touch
Soft kisses
Away from
Eyes that pry…

Memories that gave
Me reason
To smile
And rare occasions
that made
me cry

I smile
As I catch
That familiar
Twinkle
In your eye

I can read your mind
My love
We think alike
You and I …

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

“If one does not understand a person, one tends to regard him as a fool.”

I pick up subtle hints...
I'm not a fool you see...

I can only be oblivious when
I'm not aware...
If you choose to percieve it
as I don't care...

That's not my problem is it?

I don't have ESP...
I can't sit here and
sense you're not okay
I can't sit here
and know it all...no way!

Lack of communication
is the reason why...
When I reached out asking why...
I got no reply...

Did you intend for me
to hear it from others?
To be the last one to know?
Fine so be it...
But don't come back and
throw subtle hints...

I don't know what hurts more...
The fact that you never told me why?
Or
The fact that you expected me to know why?
Times like these I don't even know
why I try..
waste my emotions...
why do I cry?

Tears come easy...
but not my ability
to deal with
emotions so
crazy...

I'm not a fool?
I think I am...

You make me believe ... I am...

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Love happens...

Simply in that kinda mushy sentimental mood :P

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Who needs words when
your smile says it all
Who needs touches when
your eyes feel it all

I'm not a believer in
"love happens just once"
love happens....
time and again
it happens,
every time I catch
your glance...

Unbelievable...amazing
I never thought I could
feel this way
I never thought someday
I'd hear myself say
"Stay..."

Your love does all that
and more
It's like nothing
I've felt
before
of that I'm sure :)

Who needs words when
your smile says it all
Who needs touches when
your eyes feel it all

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Fresh - A feeling

The word of the week on our group blog is "Fresh" and below are lines that came to my mind... happy reading :)

Fresh is a feeling
a feeling divine
a new begining
something like
a new bottle but old wine :)

Fresh is a feeling
a sweet and pure fragrance
leaves me smiling
something like

the aroma of our friendship
untouched by pretense...

Monday, September 24, 2007

Words...

Words can hurt
Slice across your heart
Words can heal
Let out every emotion you feel

Words can make friends
Settle fights, make amends
Words can express
Say it right and impress

Words – language no bar
Bringing people close – near or far
Words unite
When used right

Use yours the way
you’d want others too
Use words to reach out to all
And bring people closer to you.

God gave us this gift of words
Use it well
And unite different worlds
Spread sunshine, joy and happiness
With every emotion you express!

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Obsession

Ok this one I'm not too sure about. But I penned it down all the same and so it finds a place in "Creative Corner". Love can be liberating, exhilarating...love can be otherwise too. Where does one go when love becomes an obsession. No space to grow or maybe outgrow it?

I never denied
That I cried.
I shed my tears
Lived with my fears

Your love’s an obsession
And it hurts…

I thought you understood
I gave it all I could

We’ve changed
You and I
Face it
You won’t even try

I know what
You’re thinking
But it isn’t like that
It’s not just you
I’m hurting too…

One of us had to walk away
It had to be me…
I took the blame

But this pain you’re feeling
It isn’t any different
I feel the same…

We’ve changed
You and I
Face it
You won’t even try

Your love’s an obsession
And it hurts…

Friday, August 31, 2007

Goodbye...

Love isn't always the only thing to sustain a relationship. I agree it's "the reason" why two people get together but it's not "the only reason" to stay together. Sometimes, we walk away from it unwillingly. The lines below try to grasp that feeling of "letting go"...



I know that look...
that..
look in your eye...
it makes me
wanna sigh

I know that touch...
that
touch of your finger
I simply
want it to linger...

feeling your breath...
down my neck...
smiling...
feeling that simple peck...

my head resting...
resting...
on your arm...
quiet moments...
moment of...
bliss..
ecstasy...
of peace and calm...

Feels like a dream...
Don't want to wake up..
Not now...
Not ever...
Reality brings me back
to the present
forever...

Walking away..
knowing...
your eyes following me...
I won't
won't
turn back...
my tears won't be
for you to see...

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Time Out

Every once in a while we need time alone. When feelings overwhelm us, when we need time to introspect, when the answers elude us...we seek solace in silence. We find answers from within. This was written on one such occasion...


I need time to
walk my way

I need time to
push negativity away

I need time to
believe and pray

I need time to
speak my mind
and
have my say

And in all of this
I need for you to
understand
I am not
pushing you away

If nothing else
maybe...
it will bring us
closer than before
in every possible way

I need time
time to think
to be
to cry
to feel
to heal

Just give me time...

Monday, August 20, 2007

Love is Special

I think we lose ourselves in thinking too much...sometimes life's not as complicated as we make it out to be. We really shouldn't go looking for problems where there aren't any and I really do believe that when we go looking for trouble, we've already let them in :) .. Below are simple lines to remind us why we need to let go of negativity and embrace a whole lot of loving!!!


Sunshine - bright and happy
Moonshine - warm and cozy

Love is what makes
An ordinary day
So special

Smiles - genuine and soothing
Laughter - candid and refreshing

Love is what makes
Simple feelings
So special


Embrace it
Feel it
Show it
Don't shun it

Love is what makes
You and me
So real
and
So very SPECIAL!

Monday, July 16, 2007

Steer Clear

Who doesn't like to vent right? This poem below was written after a rather crazy fight with someone :P. Fact is it's usually fights with people who matter and are close to us that get us so worked up. I don't react in extremes with people who I don't know too well. But anyway, read ahead if you want to know what's coming your way if you decide to mess with me :D...
You don't like what u see...
You say I’m being unfair...
You think u know me...
You think I really care?

You have no clue...
I’m not just about
Sentimental shit...
Agree with you…
Day in and day out...
That’s just something
I won’t do…


When I have a bad time,
When I’m in that frame of mind...
It makes no difference
If my poem doesn’t rhyme
And makes no sense…

So long as you get the drift…
Read my lips loud and clear…
Stay out of my face…
Get out of here…
And off my case!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Friend

The one thing you can't predict is when and how love simply happens between individuals. When friends fall in love, it could be the start of a wonderful relationship or it could spell disaster too...esp. when they happen to be committed elsewhere already *sigh*... the lines below simply try and capture the frame of mind of someone caught in a similar situation...

Every time I pull you close
you walk
away ...
This is no game
that you and I
play ...

With words we weave
our own magical
tales ...

Solace we find in
each other
when all else
fails ...


We live
We play
with each other
 We give
We pray
for one another

Imagination takes us
to a different
place ...

The truth hits hard
the truth we...
you and I
must face...

We lay bare
our hearts...
Yet we can't help 
but care...
for others
unaware...

We walk apart
with nothing
but
regret
in our heart...


A wicked world
A cursed word
"friend"
Is this it?
Is this really?
The End.

*moments*

When you want to make it more than obvious :) and leave no room for doubt. Why hesitate...just be explicit and make the "moments" magical...hmmmmmmm :) ...

It's in the air...
this feeling
I sense it in me...
but
you're too wrapped up
to see

I could make it obvious
leave you with
no choice

How weird is that?
you can't sense it
when you look at my face
in my eyes...
in my smile...in my voice...

Yep I could
make it obvious
leave you with
no choice

Baby, I can give you
hell
and
heaven

You wouldn't know what
hit you
You wouldn't wanna
let go

Even if you did..
You'd be back
for more
yeah you would
for sure!

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Hate

This one's pure venting! Written in a bad frame of mind for somone specific. Goes to show I get creative when I go into extreme's :P ... but on a more serious note, I guess it helps to let of steam once in a while and sometimes it is necessary to shed diplomacy and speak our mind!....

It doesn't matter
I really don't care!
Why show you bother?
...that you're there!

I can see right through you
Your fake concern
You make such an issue
Inside I burn

I hate hearing you
I hate looking at you
I know I don't need you

I have love in my life
I value people who matter
People who genuinely care
Who listen...who share!

Can I be more explicit?
Do you not get it??
You're making me hate
The person I am!
Filled with resentment,
That's what I am!

I'm a better person without you...
Believe me...
My life won't crash with out YOU!

Thursday, May 31, 2007

Feel The Wind Blow...

The inspiration for this poem is sheer romance :)! Love is a subject one can write pages and pages on right. I also wrote this while I watched the moon one night and with memories of a beautiful night spent on the beach...


You feel the wind blow
You watch the water flow
In the moonlight,
You take a step slow

You watch her back
As she stands,
Facing the stream
You can’t see her face
But you feel her hands
Warm….soft…
You know this is real
No longer a dream

You feel the wind blow
You watch the water flow
In the moonlight
You feel your love grow

 In her eyes you see
The love she feels for you
In her smile you see
The happiness she gets from you

In the silent dark night,
In your heart
A promise you make,
To hold her close
Never for a moment
To be apart

In your arms,
She feels the wind blow
Watches the water flow
In the moonlight
You see her face glow

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

If I Die

I wrote this straight from the heart and I mean every word expressed here. One thing though... I do believe thinking/speaking of death is bad omen...and this was the one time I made an exception to pen down these lines! It is but obviously for the special someone in my life...

If I die,
Would you cry?
Why?

Because you love me?
Because life won’t be,
The same without me?

But ask me what I really want
If I were to die baby
I’d want you to,
Grieve for me just once
Then look at life ahead.
You may think you can’t
But life always moves on
After a long dark night
There’s always a beautiful dawn

When you think of me
I want you to smile
Memories
Pleasant, sad, crazy, happy
Flooding your mind
And just for a while…

Think of love…
Of our times together
Don’t regret that we,
Lost forever…

Think of the chance we got
At sharing a love
That truly was,
A blessing from above

So baby if I die…
Don’t you cry…ever
Know that… I will love you…
Just the same…forever