Angel

 Last night I dreamt of you

I cuddled you soft and warm

An angel in my arms

Sleeping peacefully calm

I kissed your tiny feet

As your tiny hands

Reached out to me

I held you close

Doted on you totally

I saw myself love you

Unconditionally

In a perfect world

Where love triumphs

Unimaginable as it may seem

This beautiful spring

You would have been

My reality…Not given up

Like a lost dream

Love that was

On Valentines...

Your smile is what I remember

the first time we met

Your smile is what I now try

so hard to forget

Do you remember our first

conversation?

Bits and pieces float around

in my head..my heart

And now that we're
not together

it's the memories of us

that keep me from

falling apart...

I want to live for
the memories of

the hours we shared

when you seem to

show you cared...

I struggle to live through

the hours without...

facing my demons 

and hearing them shout...

Love was never enough

Love just never was...

I will never learn, will I?

That this is final...

not a momentary pause...

But tell me...
Do you ever feel

the way I do?

Do you let reality

fade away...

and feel tempted to

say it too

say...I love you?

the way I still do...

Done with loving...

Penned sometime ago ... shared today

"I'm done with loving 

done with giving 

without receiving 

When it's gone 

nothing else matters 

Love is a game

it breaks...it shatters 

 a game of lies 

of selfish desire 

a path of roses 

to a raging fire 

I could learn 

to play too 

take you for a ride 

I could lose it too 

this thing called pride 

My lesson I've learnt 

my broken heart nursed 

Yet I won't wish 

upon you a life cursed 

There in the depths 

of all my misery 

you've occupied 

a part of me 

Let me be... set me free... 

No more pain 

for your selfish gain 

It isn't you, is it? 

It's I holding on 

It's I not letting go 

Its my weakness 

and i'm letting it show 

I'm done with loving 

done with giving 

without receiving"

DREAM...

"Hmmm…this particular poem may seem a little vague and I cannot elaborate the circumstances and situation that prompted the lines below…it’s not as easy as it seems…to forget…even if there is no one to remember…the dream is never easy to let go…"

A dream that lasted a day or two
A dream woven around you
But you were never meant to be
A dream I wish I never did see

Yes…God works in mysterious ways
And…I know in just a few more days
You'll be a distant memory
Even though you were a part of me

Alone I can't hold back my tears
Alone I confront my worst fears
I never did know you...see you...hold you
You didn't...and you don't exist
Yet I loved you...and I still do

Prelude to pain

Dedicated to the “casual fling” ... whatever!

I have this craving
That’s driving me insane
It’s a prelude to pain

I wanna stay
Don’t push me away
Wanna give this one night
Whatever I’ve got

You hear me?

I wanna experience
Ecstasy
Make it real
This never ending
Fantasy

You want no strings attached
I can live with that
It’s no curse
I’ve lived with regret worse

It’s a prelude to pain
My loss your gain

I wanna stay
Don’t push me away
Wanna give this one night
Whatever I’ve got

You hear me?

I’ll live with
The regret
Coz baby right now,
I wanna give you
A night
You’ll never forget!

It’s a prelude to pain
My loss your gain

Tomorrow
You’ll probably
Look right through me
You think that scares me?
Maybe…

But I wanna look at tonight
And forget tomorrow
Forget yesterday
Tonight it’s going to be magic
Just my way

Yes! I’m gonna
Satisfy this craving
That’s driving me insane
It’s a prelude to pain
My loss your gain!

The End

All good things come to an end

Nothing lasts forever

The smile of a friend

Changes to the cold stare

Of a stranger

Sharing caring loving

Gone in the blink of an eye

“Us” losing out to “I”

Nothing left to say

Only a desire to

Walk away

Memories remain

They bring a tear...a smile

And all the pain

Fades after a while

It simply doesn’t matter

Life moves on

Till there’s thing left

The good...the bad...

Like “us” they’re all gone...

Then and Now

It's been a while since I last wrote here. Life's kept me busy in a nice way. The poem below was a spontaneous one and has not gone through any editing as such. Inspired by the lives of many around me.

 That was then

This is now

We’ve changed

You and I

And

We can’t fathom

How

Then there were

Secret smiles

Clandestine conversations

Passionate encounters

Every second together

Mattered

Every minute apart

Shattered

Now all that’s left is

Lingering feelings

Unfulfilled desires

Longings

Quiet sighs

Silent tears

Known and

Unknown

Fears

Even as I

Voice myself

Through my words

I can sense

Your discomfort

Try as I might

It will end

There’s a sense

Of finality

Tonight